I've been very lazy with the weightloss, lacking alot of motivation, I am proud of what I have achieved so far - 37.3kg is no little loss, but for what I need to achieve, I'm only a third of the way there, so I'm frustrated and just plateu'ing at the moment. If I was sgtrict like my sister in law, I could have lost 50kg by now, but I can't not let myself have things, I then go crazy and ust gorge like there is no tomorrow, so I've been allowing myslef to have what I want, but in moderation - the reason behind the lap band, it help with the moderation only letting me eat a very small amount, so it's a tool - one I am misusing right at this very moment, but it's been an emotional rollercoaster lately and always - emotions are my excuse to eat ... something I am working on... trust me - much better than I used to be. I no longer eat a packet of tim tams, I eat 1 or 2. Life changing in comparison, and it's a long road ahead, but I will get there even if it takes me 10 years .... it's not something I can just step off like Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers, it's a lifetime of dieting I am facing, but if that's what it takes ... that's exactly what I'll do. :-)

Hurdle Leaped

I've had a hurdle for a couple of weeks where I just couldn't make it to 35kg loss mark ... it's been insane and I've been relatively well behaved.I went for my fill yesterday and the surgeon didn't put anything in as he was happy with my progress and said if he did put fluid in, it would be overfill and not good for me, so he wants me to wait it out another 4 weeks, which is fine with me. I'll just be strong and good and start adding more exercise to my very limited exercise regime.
However, I got on the scales this morening - and wohoooo ... I've leaped the 35kg loss mark ..... finally. Gives me a smile and motivation to reach my next 5kg goal of 40kg down. 47 kg will be my half way mark!!! So only 12kg off that!!
Getting excited, can't wait to be half way there, currently only just over a third of the way!!! LOL. But I am so proud of myself.

I went home to visit Mum and Dad in the country on the weekend and my best mate who I haven't seen for a couple of months commented just how much I am fading away - lol, exaggeration on his behalf but compared to what I was, then I am.

Even a friend of my sister in laws commented to my Mum that she didn't comment on my weight loss to me directly as she wasn't sure if it was me who had lost a stack of weight or my next younger sister who had put some on, so she thought she'd check with Mum first and then pass on a congrats for my weightloss because I look fantastic.

Oh, and remember my pandora charm - every 5kg I put a new charm, this morning marked a new charm!! Yay!!! That is 7 I now have on it.

Milestone

Holy cow ... I'm under 140kg, I am so excited by that - happy happy happy ... things are moving well this week - really pleased!!!

I haven't been very 'good' lately, so today is a whole new day - starting fresh ... drinking lots of water today, just having what I should - no extra junk - that's my goal. Go me!!!!

Busy evening ahead, going home to cook 3 meals, tonights and the next 2 nights as I have aqua aerobics on tuesday nights, so always cook a casserole like dinner the evening before so it can just be reheated when we get home, but this week I have hairdressers wednesday night, so cooking chicken fettucine for then .... I love an organised kitchen.

6 months post surgery = baby making

Other than of course to become a better, healthier, sexier me ..... my biggest problem is PCOS (Polycystic ovary syndrome) so it is extremely hard for us to fall pregnant.
Hubby and I have been married over 18 months and are really eager to start a family, but first I need to lose a massive amount of weight.
Hopefully by losing 40-50kg, my ovaries might get their shit together and start maturing eggs.

Fingers crossed and send me baby dust!! I need all the help I can get.

Anyway on my first appointment with my surgeon last November, I was told that I needed to wait 6 months after surgery to start TTC (trying to conceive) so come the 2nd of Augsut 09 - it was BD Day (Baby Dancing day) lol ... go us ..... think my body needs more time, but doesn't hurt trying hey???

1st August 09

OMG OMG OMG - my pics are unreal, I don't even lookn like the me I have known for such a long time, my body shape is just changing dramatically.




Measurements
Weight: 141.7kg
Neck: 41.5cm
Biceps: 40cm
Chest: 119cm
Boobs: 141.5xm
Waist: 121cm
Thighs: 62cm
Stomach: 150cm
Abs: 144.5cm





A total of 31.8kg lost and 108.5cm smaller. I am finally - FINALLY - feeling good about myself, feeling proud of the direction I am going!!!

1st July 09

Made a bit of a dent - I'm in the 140's ... wohooooo

Measurements

Weight: 145.8kg

Neck: 41.5cm

Biceps: 41cm

Chest: 120cm

Boobs: 148cm

Waist: 124cm

Thighs: 64cm

Stomach: 152cm

Abs: 145cm

pics are really telling a story of their own!!

June 09

I really struggled throughout the month of May so there is no June entry or pics, I just blocked it out and told people I'd "forgotten" whereas the truth is - the scales weren't too impressive, so I didn't bother with the pics, I had time out!!!

1st May 09

*entry from paper journal*

4 month mark

Doing ok, could be better. But bluntly - I am not as strict as I should be. Need to focus my head more - it's the lazy part.

Measurements

Weight: 151.2kg

Neck: 42.5cm

Biceps: 41cm

Chest: 123cm

Boobs: 152cm

Waist: 129cm

Thighs: 67.5cm

Stomach: 159cm

Abs: 152cm

Comparison photos from 1st Jan - 1st May

1st April 09

*entry from paper journal*

3 months in today - 2 months post op.

KG loss wasn't much but boy I can tell by cm and photos.

So glad I'm making myself keep at those.

Measurements

Weight: 155.3kg

Neck: 42.5cm

Biceps: 43cm

Chest: 125cm

Boobs: 153cm

Waist: 131cm

Thighs: 69cm

Stomach: 163cm

Abs: 155cm

1st March 09

*entry from paper journal*

ooooh been a tough month - yo-yo-ing a lot. Been so frustrating, but it's slowly moving again - committment is what I have to remember.

Started water aerobics today - OMG, it was awesome. I loved it. Keeping that up for sure.

Measurements

Weight - 157.7kg

Neck: 44.5cm

Biceps: 44cm

Chest: 126cm

Boobs: 155.5cm

Waist: 134cm

Thighs: 73cm

Stomach: 166cm

Abs: 157cm

Monday 9th Feb 09

*entry from paper journal*
I can't believe I have lost 15.9kg since New Years Day. I'm so proud of myself.
For the first time ever of being on a diet, I can see the road ahead rather than focusing on the 'bad food choices'. I can't wait for another couple of months to 'see' the physical result in photos ... wohoooo ... GO ME!!!!!!

Tues 3rd Feb 09 - 1 day post op

*entry from paper journal*
Day after surgery. Feeling good so far. Went visiting Margie (brother in laws mother who had same day surgery) at 4.30am this mornin, I could hear her chatting to her roomate so I was nosey and went to investigate.
Physically doing well, walking, getting up and down ok. Have to support stomach while doing so for slight pain - largest incision where the port is the most painful but bearable - more of an ache.
I was pretty dozy after the surgery - my first ever hospital stay. Hated coming out of the anaesthetic in recovery, freaked me out a bit, wanted to rip the tubes from my nose and arms ... eeewww.
Slept relatively well during the night, only really woke up when the nurse came in.
Margie and I went walking around the ward at 6am as well as the adjoinging ward, that was nice and early - think the nurses were a bit shocked to see it.
Very restless today and not wanting to lie in bed, preferring to sit instead, it's less aching on my back.

So all n all - feeling fine, wait for Dr Watson's visit to see if I can go home.
Fingers crossed.

For the record, the nurse informed me the doctor isn't coming till late, but if I feel fine, I can go home - so by 9am - I was on my way. 26 hours in hospital all up!!
Happy :)

1st February 2009

1 month down - day before surgery. *entry from paper journal*

Still took photos but can't see much of a difference, but I guess it won't be too noticeable for a while yet, except in my tummy when I face right (maybe I am lopsided)


Losing cm's though, feeling proud of myself, feel I'm doing pretty great so far.


Measurements
Weight: 163.8kg
Neck: 46cm
Biceps: 45cm
Chest: 128cm
Boobs: 160cm
Waist: 138cm
Thighs: 73cm
Stomach: 168cm
Abs: 156.5cm

Lapband surgery tomorrow

My weightloss journey

This blog is my written weight loss journey!!!


I have created a short blog on extrapounds with all my info - but sometimes I feel it's only to express the good behaviour patterns - and I am just not in a good place with my diet and weightloss alot of the time ... so this my friends - is it - all the hard work, all the nitty gritty, all the details.


I'll do a month by month account of my progress up until the current time ... from 1st January 2009 - just to catch you up where I am at, then I'll post more regular and detailed posts!!!

Day 1 - 1st January 2009

New years day - what other day is the best to start the journey to a new healthier me???

New day, New Year, New Me ... here I go!!!!

My day 1 photos - I plan on wearing the same clothes on the first day of each month until I can no longer wear them

Until taking these pics, I never knew just how big I was - these pics really hit home.


1 month pre-lapband surgery!!


This is the day I started on Optifast meal replacement shakes in preparation for surgery!!!!

Measurements
Neck: 45.5cm
Biceps: 46cm
Chest: 129.5cm
Boobs: 159cm
Waist: 142cm
Thighs: 75cm
Stomach: 171cm
Abs: 158cm

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